I think I may have to abandon this blogspot.

Regarding Sam Raimi's low-budget YouTube Sci-fi film.

[01:43:20] Steven: The thing is, it's easily done! If i had a more powerful computer i could do that kinda stuff!
[01:43:40] Kyshia: I really want to do this stuff.
[01:44:54] Kyshia: I need a mac
[01:45:03] Kyshia: and a new camera
[01:45:30] Kyshia: Makes me think I shouldn't have done Film "Studies"
[01:47:44] Kyshia: Finished
[01:48:00] Kyshia: Yeah, it is pretty impressive considering the budget he had
[01:48:24] Steven: So do i
[01:49:30] Stevent: Yeah but he was on about a website called detonation films, and i was on that website like 4 years ago and i downloaded all the free material
[01:50:17] Steven: so we should come up with a project
[01:50:42] Kyshia: Yesss, Steven! We should!

Walked into to town (and almost melted into a puddle of Kyshia), looked a few cameras, checked my bank balance (I HAVE FOUR PENCE!) and now I'm back inside, still feeling very hot.

I get my loan on Monday.

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I suck at this blog thing. I mean, not blogging in general (because I manage to blog succesfully on Tumblr a very large portion of the time). I am aware that I'm neglecting this project of mine, but I do have legitimate excuses. Although, I'm unwilling to delve into intricate detail.

I'll get 'round to it, 'kay?!

Reigniting passion.

William Shakespeare,

I will be taking advantage of the fact that I own all of your writings from today onwards.

I don't have anything to write...

I just want to live happily ever after.

I just want to go to sleep for a few days.

I’m ungrateful, and mopey and disrespectful, because I’m sad.

My mother is offended by the fact that I’m miserable when I come home. She’s just gone on and on for ages about how I never do anything when I’m here, that I just stay in bed and when/if I do get up, all I do is mope around. I’m not even going to deny that this is true, because this place makes me absolutely fucking miserable. I don’t feel like I have a reason to get up.

The friends that I have here are either knocked up and/or spending all of their time in their local(s) (pubs) and I don’t want to be a part of that. I don’t want to have a baby at 20, get engaged and live in a house in Retford. It’s not something I’ve ever wanted. It doesn’t mean that I think I’m better than my friends, it doesn’t mean that I look down on them, it just means that I want something more for myself. Is there anything wrong with that?!

If I had any money right now, I would get a train back to London tomorrow. Blah, I feel so dramatic writing all of this. I don’t like drama. I’m the most chilled out person ever, I get so annoyed when people try to disrupt my nonchalant disposition. Ugh whatever, I have another 10 days left until I can leave this place, then I’ll be surrounded by my friends again and back to my usual happy self.

Think positive, Kyshia

MGMT - Flash Delirium.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zWs72lvZoGM

Beck & Charlotte Gainsbourg - Heaven Can Wait.

I want to film naked people, in a completely non pornographic way.

Ginger Snaps (2000)

Ginger: It feels so... good, Brigitte. It's like touching yourself. You know every move... right on the fucking dot. And after, see fucking freworks. Supernovas. I'm a goddamn force of nature. I feel like I could do just about anything.

How do I look? Pensive, right? Well, I'd like to come across that way, ideally. I can't help but concentrate on the fact that I look somewhat similar to a doberman in this picture though. Hm. That's probably an unusual thought to publish. Anyway, the point of this post is not merely to show my face and describe the impression I hope you get from, but to give you a little snippet of what's to come. I think I may make video on YouTube shortly (just a direct upload) talking you through the ideas that pertain to the images I've posted over the past two days. I do realise I haven't been writing very much at all, and I have yet to decide whether that's down to sheer laziness or just lack of things to say. I'm hoping that the pressure of the camera will force the words out of me.

Why can't money grow on trees?

http://www.metfilmschool.co.uk/Courses/Short-Course.aspx

I want to do a Summer course in Documentary Filmmaking, but it costs £4,000 and I don't think I'll be able to make that amount of money so soon, seeing as I, uh, don't have a job.

Radiohead: Hail to The Thief.

A Thousand Words.

A Thousand Words from Ted Chung on Vimeo.

This is what I need.

Inspiration.

I am setting myself goals.
Before the month is over, I am going to:

(I WANTED TO STRUCTURE THIS LIST USING BULLET POINTS. HOW DO I DO THIS?)
Purchase a new camera (a cheap handheld one, just to start off with)
Purchase a scrapbook; start jotting down ideas/use images (whatever inspires me) to illustrate my ideas.
Film the videos/edit them.
Upload them onto Vimeo/YouTube.
Post them on my Tumblr.

etc...

I basically just need a creative outlet, and this is it.

Introduction.

arvidabystrom

My recent discovery of arvidabystrom and her shared blogspot with Katja is what spurred me to join this site, blogspot.